Thursday, February 26, 2009

Yoga gave me Truth.. Satya

So the big move date it rapiddddly approaching. Bittersweet. Sam met me at my 'old house' and we packed all my stuff. We had from 9-5 to get it all packed and ready for the Uhaul that comes on Monday...but of course Billy who from here on out will be referred to as CS ...(cock sucker) - not bitter just truth ;) showed up at 3 (even though he promised he would not be there till 5) well I am sure we all know how this ended...not good. Lets hope all my stuff is still in the boxes and not out in the snow banks.

I am sitting here today Thursday February 26, 2009 looking at my life wondering how a smart strong capable women let her life get to this point. Let myself loose myself. I gave my heart, soul, spirit to someone and something that i believed in to my core...to be left living out of a suitcase watching everything i have known for a very long time end. I have built a good life a solid life, but along the way forgot about me, and lost the one person that will always be there for me no matter what...ME.

I in no way want nor need sympathy for my situation, I got myself in, I can damn well get myself out. I will come out the other side of this pain so much stronger, aware of myself, my worth and aware of my truth.

Yoga brought me back. I dedicated the last 2 years to exploring every aspect of Yoga that I could...and you know what i found...ME.

I am looking forward to this next chapter in my life and doing my very best to keep an open heart and an open mind. I know I have great things to give this life, and that is exactly what I plan to do. When i leave this body, i will have left some impact on this world....maybe just a beautiful garden, or have given Yoga to abused women, or maybe my smile gave someone hope...

Love love and more love

6 comments:

  1. great post sister!!! your a strong gal.love you.

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  2. You are super strong! and lucky you guys didn't have kids, then you'd be stuck with the CS forever.

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  3. ya dad said he just moved you in. CS was there so it was weird, but he brought the boys. take some pics! i wanna see the place!

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  4. look lady this is crap sammitch...two posts...and no answer ANYTIME I call...raaaaarrrr, that was my war face by the way! miss you!!

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